Saturday, November 20, 2010

a little rain...

today it is raining.. a little from the sky, a little from my eyes, a little from my heart.

its been a tough couple of weeks.
news of my grandma's health fading, 2 accidents, husbands truck dead, borrowed car dead...

i couldn't sleep last night. my neck was killing me. sharp pains from my chin down to my arm. woke up and decided i needed to see a doctor. apparently i have a badly sprained neck and am having spasms.
on the way home from doctor, in another borrowed car.. i had to stop by the body shop to collect all our belongings out of my totalled car. it was sad. didn't want to say bye. its not final, but pretty sure.
i sat in the back of my mangled car, with the rain dripping through the cracked windshield. and i cried. prayed. and cried. God moves in answer to prayer right? so i asked. "God, i have hope.. provide for us.. in a big way"
as i was driving i got a call from my husband... the great gap insurance which sounded good, is good.. just not that good. whatever money we get from the accident goes back to honda.. and then whatever is left over in covered by gap insurance. so... after kelly blue booking our car, it looks like we might get about $12.oo. yes. TWELVE dollars.
cried again.

as i was pulling up to our house i thought, i'm gonna check the mail. why can't there be a big anonymous check? right? then i prayed. "God, just show me that you CAN..." i turned the key with my eyes closed, looked inside. nope. just two bills. of course.. then i crouched down and looked again.. just in case. far back was a little red envelope jammed up against the back.
a little note from drew's cousin saying 'we are praying for you' and a check saying "thought you might enjoy this, we are praying for you".
it wasn't enough to buy a car. but its enough for me to know that God hears my prayers... and He is good, and He WILL provide.

Thank you Josh and Rebekah Kapcynski.. for being a little umbrella on my heart today.. and turning my sad tears, to tears of hope.

God is good.. He will provide.. and I will blog about it :)


  1. hey friend it is amy. i am so sorry you dont get money for a new car. but your life inspires me to have hope and faith in God's goodness. He is the BEST Father that will always provide. praying for you

  2. Hey - you don't know me - I'm a friend of Rebekah Kapcynski. She sent me the link to your blog a bit ago and i've been reading it (I hope that was okay!)
    I just wanted to say thank you! I have been going through a lot of rough things lately and I so apperciate your blog and you putting yourself out here for others to see all you are going through. It has been very helpful for me!
    Also you have an amazing skill in writing!!! I just want to keep reading all your post and i'm not a big reader. Its a gift from God to be able to write like this! Anyway, thank you and i will be praying for you and your family!

    Numbers 6:24-26
    The LORD bless you and keep you; the LORD make his face shine on you and be gracious to you; the LORD turn his face toward you and give you peace.”’

  3. Praying for you...
    The Tibbils Ohana

    P.S. Like Rebekah above, I don't know you but a friend of mine posted your Avon review on her FB Avon page. I read it and started looking at your other posts. Needless to say, I really enjoy reading your blog and was so excited to find out that you are also a believer. In fact, the other night my husband was on one computer and I was on another watching the video of you and your husband (so many similarities to my husband and I...we are eachother's only boyfriend/girlfriend, first kiss, etc.) and he laughed as he heard you giggling. After awhile he asked me if I knew you guys and I said no...I have to admit, I felt a little awkward then ;) Thank you for being so honest...the challenge to glorify God in all things isn't always easy but it is the best life we could live. Blessings!

  4. thank you guys for encouraging me and for reading.. i often think, even if no one reads.. its good for me to write and work out issues.. ya know?! even though i don't know you, i love you guys! :)