for some people having kids is a natural part of life, it just happens in sequence like it should. Some people its an unexpected, unplanned surprised... while for others it is a long hard struggle...
I was thinking of my journey with my uterus and thought I would write it a little note.
Funny I am writing to you seeing as you are part of me...but I wanted to make time to sincerely thank you for all you have done for me. I remember when I first got my period, hating you.... irregular, painful, horrible period. I didn't understand why I needed you, or wanted you... I just knew that I hated you.
As I grew up I started to realize your importance.
When the doctor told me that you were not "good" for housing babies and that you were "cold", I felt bad for all those years of wondering why you were important. All of a sudden I needed you, I wanted you to be healthy, strong... and "warm" for lots of babies.
I didn't realize the impact you would have on my lifelong decisions and thought you would be a deal breaker for the man I would fall in love with... spend my life with... I thought surely a man would not want to be married to an out-of-order uterus.
Luckily he did...
We got you checked up, tuned up and made provision for a long road a head, or so I thought. The doctor told me you wouldn't take well to pregnancy and that we would need some help, and that it would probably take a long time. 5 months later you received and housed my first little miracle, then 2 years later another, and another and another....
To many people's astonishment not only have you housed the most precious gifts and biggest achievements of my life 4 times, you have made me stronger, healthier, and made me something I thought might not every be possible... a mom.
I don't know if you knew this dear uterus, but this was my dream, my longing... my desire.
Together with their dad we have created 4 perfect little beings that will now last for eternity. What could be more beautiful than that?
So I needed to take a moment. stop. reflect. and thank you for all that you have done for me. My sweet uterus.... now it is time for you to rest.. thank you for doing the impossible.
a mommy with 4 beautiful babies...