Friday, December 31, 2010


came home today after going back for my grandmother's funeral. too many emotions, too many things to say. i put a beautiful picture of her on our mantle.
my daughter says "mom, your grandma is beautiful. she has pretty lipstick and .. mom, does she love kids? it looks like she loves kids" and i said "jael, my grandma loved kids the most "she said "what if she forgot her toothbrush going to heaven and gets cavities?"... i tried not to cry.. then she just hugged my leg and said "mom, i love you... its hard to let go of something you love so much huh?"

my little girl... she's only 3 years old and so compassionate and wise.

my grandmother was beautiful... so beautiful. it is hard to let go of something you love so much...

Monday, December 27, 2010

humble hands

This Christmas eve I lost my grandmother who was so precious and dear to me. She was so many things to me that I cannot fully grasp that she is gone. I contemplated writing about it, but thought it might help me sort out my thoughts and fully accept things more.
I grew up with my grandmother, in many ways she raised me. When I was young she lived with us and shared a room. I loved her.

humble. sweet. quiet. loving. hard working. giving. beautiful... so many words come to mind. She woke every morning and sang her favorite hymns, prayed and read the word aloud. Every night she did the same thing. The sound of her reading and praying is so clear in my mind and such a comfort to me. She was shy, kept to herself.. never wanted to inconvenience anyone.. always served.

Her passing came as a shock to all of us. Knowing we only had days, I was blessed to be able to sit by her bedside and hold her hand. share good memories, apologize for things I could have done better, and thank her for instilling in me so many fundamental truths that made me who I am today. With her kids, with her grandkids... she always loved. Even when we were unloveable... she loved.

She went to be with the Lord on Christmas Eve as family sang her favorite hymns. Fitting that the next day was Christmas. This is why Jesus came... so that beautiful souls like her could live in eternity. What a beautiful lady.

My heart is sad because she is no longer here, but my spirit is happy to know she is with the Lord. There is no more sadness, sorrow, hurt, worry or pain. Just praise, dancing and love.

What a lovely lady... I miss her...and love her so much. Thankful for the life she lived and that she was part of mine. words cannot say enough....sarang hae yo halmuni....

Saturday, December 11, 2010


we were at el pollo loco today and they have these new touch screen coke machines that are amazing! its just one machine, 106 flavors...i think it made our day! haha...
i feel like i live in the future. ipods, touch screens... all i need is a hovercraft.

on another note, we had the privelege to be a part of Team Focus today. a great group that was created to mentor and disciple fatherless youth boys... what a great day. I got to share a little bit and was glad i was given that opportunity. God is good.. changing lives. I am amazed at the life I have. if you told me 15 years ago that i would have the life I have now, I would have laughed and probably sadly said "yeah right". I am so glad that God has greater vision, hope, love and plans than I do. I love that guy...

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Festive Fingers

here are a couple of quick nail tutorials for Christmas. Have a beautiful day everyone!

snowcapped tips

Santa Claus ho ho ho

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

How to use a Hair Bobble

i didn't realize how many people didn't know how to use a hair bobble. hopefully this is helpful to follow and learn! have a beautiful week my peeps!

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Christmas Gift Ideas

Hey everyone! I thought I'd help out with some Christmas gift ideas. each picture will be clickable to where you can purchase them. I will add new things as I find them so keep checking back!

$5 and under

$20 and under

$30 and under

$50 and under

$100 and under

$200 and under

if you have more than $500 to spend, I'll give you my address and shipping address. haha!

Monday, December 6, 2010


what a wonderful weekend. i got to share just a little bit at a ladies tea...and even though i cried through most of it, it was good. i always say that if your experiences can make one other person think, be thankful, understand, or encourage just a little bit...than it is worth it.

came home and was thinking about the good friends i have. they are honest with me, open, and tell it like it is. i've always been a pretty open person i guess. susie says i'm very transparent. one of my best traits..but also my tragic flaw.
so i am always thankful when people are open and up front with me. friends are like mirrors. they help you see things about yourself you can't see on your own. sometimes you don't like it, but it doesn't mean its not true. and on the other hand sometimes its hard to accept that you are beautiful, creative..and having a good hair day. haha!
anyways, so today as i reflect i am thankful for all the mirrors in my life that show me what i can't see...

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Ellen Degeneres

so. ok.. first off. i realize i did a AMAZING job editing this video, and said the same thing twice.. but i was excited.. haha!!

so i have been saying its gonna happen somehow.. maybe this is my way!